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barbie
21 July 2012 @ 01:18 am

I have always taken pride in the fact I am a Colorado native but right now I feel... ashamed & mortified.

There have been a few occurances that changed Colorado forever. I had all day to think about the things that have been happening to my homeland & I can only express in mere words that can be explained in terms of fathomed disbelief, utter confusion, & a burden onto my heart.

As all of you know, there was a shooting in Aurora at a movie theatre during a midnight screening of the latest Batman movie. I live approximately 20 minutes from where the crime scene took place. All day I read/watched stories on the news, talked with friends, & was left to my own thoughts. How could someone be so heartless? These people innocently wanted to watch a movie for enjoyment, unknowingly that their destiny would end in death or pain! I also read stories about my friends who actually lost a friend, relative, or coworker to this tragedy.

Too many things have been happening to Colorado lately; wildfires, a dental surgeon who was recenty caught with the possibility of exposing 8,000 patients with HIV from using the same needles, & a massacre. What is going on? Are we being punished?

I don't know what else to say but for sure, this has gotten to me. Rather than writing in this blog with irrational thoughts, I thought I would share my Facebook & Twitter updates (in no particular order):
  • "wtf, first thing i wake up to is this- 12 killed & 38 people wounded at a movie theatre. president obama is calling this a 'colorado massacre'".
  • "as an avid fan of batman, it will never be the same again. thoughts & prayers go out to the victims of this tragedy".
  • "no offense but who would bring their 3 mos old infant to a 3 hour movie at midnight?!"
  • "i have a lot of batman shirts. i wore one of them to the pool this morning w/o realizing it. no wonder i got mean stares from bystanders."
  • "WTF @danieltosh It's Sad we have a @theatershooting on the release of #darkknight, but why couldnt he at least did this shit to #magicmike?"
  • "rest in peace, @jessicaredfield."
  • "its time for the FBI & CIA to change their criminal profiling. even a Ph.D student with no criminal record could be a cruel murderer."
  • "firearms are not responsible for the #theatershooting. an evil heart was, and someone with an evil heart will find a way to be a monster."

This article sent chills down my spine. http://m.naturalnews.com/news/036536_James_Holmes_shooting_false_flag.html

Good night.






 
 
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barbie
04 June 2012 @ 12:02 am
Happy Birthday to me!
 
 
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barbie
10 February 2012 @ 12:28 am
The lovely technical form of an Apple has fallen apart on me. I haven't been able to update this journal mainly because my old fashioned laptop merely works like a piece of a mouse's brain. I also recieved a kindle fire for christmas so naturally I've lost the motivation to write- do not buy this device because it will dominate your life. This shall tell you how one itty bitty invention can defeat years worth of Mac crap.

Life is grand, in all honesty.

So grand that I actually do not have much to update. There's not a lot of negativitiy, drama, & self-wallowed pity to consume into by writing into this blog. It seems unnatural, actually.

I took two personal days off work this week & I almost feel guilty. Isn't that pathetic? At least it shows that I have serious work ethics but I knew that I really needed these days off. I needed the time to actually file taxes for my refund, have my laser hair removal appointment done, & get my car oil changed/tires rotated/tires aligned.. etc. I also needed to some decent hours to actually focus on my pharmaceutical studies. I am ALMOST done with pharmacy technician school. Cannot fucking wait.

This blog might have been written longer than expected but to save you all the bullshit, I shall say good night. I'm off to go see my love.
 
 
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barbie
21 January 2012 @ 12:20 am

I have found the one that accepts me for who I am. I have found the one that devours at every bit of my soul & remains intrigued at all times. I have found the one that accepts my deviant culture; deafness. I have found the one that loves meeting people from different walks of life & holds no one barred. I have found the one that has no judgement against my past nor has the desire to know about it as long as I am entirely his now. I have found the one that appreciates my beauty & is not afraid to help me flaunt it. I have found the one that is confident, secure with himself, & enjoys the concept of living. I have found the one that is equivalent to me in every aspect. I have found the one that supports me in everything that I do. I have found someone that respects me as a person without ever questioning a "NO". I have found the one that sets a goal in the bedroom when it comes to making love; to be certain that I'm mutually satisfied.I have found the one that gives me the freedom to enjoy life. I have found the one that is slow to anger & to not be afraid. I have found the one that is entirely open with me & has nothing to hide nor any shame. I have found the one that gives me nothing but joy. There are also too many to list... 

& for the first time I know what true love feels like because all of the above is equally reprociated. I am definitely in love.

I must be dreaming.

 
 
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barbie
24 May 2011 @ 03:03 pm


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